Rhiannon-Maeve

Do you ever feel like nobody cares? Like no matter how hard you try to reach out to someone nobody is ever going to be there for you to reach to? Like even though you could be in a room full of 1000 people you'd still be lonely .

Lonliness is a frequent thing I put myself through , I say I put myself through because it's not that people are rejecting me or pushing me away or don't want to associate with me , it's because I do it to them . Quite often I'm scared of becoming too close to people in case they do leave me which would obviously be a very upsetting thing . I tend to lock people out of push people away from me so if they ever do decide im too much then I won't be hurt by it . I think one of my resolutions for 2015 is to definatley stop that . But because I feel lonely it doesn't mean I don't like being alone , in fact I'd rather be alone than In a room full people because it gives me time to think and space out away from A lot of things . I'm intro verted 

Being an introvert is something I'm content with , I'd rather sit in my room reading a book than being out at a party . But , for some people lonliness isn't quite the same thing . I once knew someone who was severely depressed and lonely and everyday they felt alone and scared and just like nobody cared , but somebody cares . Whether that somebody be a friend you've made online , a significant other , a real life friend or someone from your family . They'll always be someone who cares about you more than you realise .. It only took 4 words for me to realise that . The day somebody told me "I believe in you" was the day I knew if I worked for it I could do all of the cool shit I wanted to do and that nothing would get in my way . Just a simple thing like telling someone you believe in them can honestly effect their outlook on things for a while . So if you felt like you needed a bit of a pick me up , or that you needed to hear it , I believe In you