Uncertainty
The state of being uncertain or unsure of your current situation .
For years I've pushed my uncertainties and anxieties for the back of my mind and ignored the fact they ever existed , pushed them until they've been done away with , until I forgot I ever even knew they existed as a part of me
But being uncertain is always something I as a person will experience no matter what I'm doing . Whether it be creating , achieving or aspiring ; over the years it's been something I've learnt to come to terms with .. Being uncertain
The things I get uncertain about are likely to be very varied from the things other people do . I am my own person , I have my own thoughts . I have my own personality . I have my own style of art and I have my own way of getting shit done . Now for me to share my fears and uncertainties with you would be a whole other thing , there are hundreds upon thousands of things I fear and am uncertain about . Spiders , heights , oblivion and the dark to name a few .. But to quote one of my favorite books "oblivion is inevitable" and while cliche , this is the truth . One day the human race will cease to exist and there will be nobody left to remember anything you or I have done . And I've learnt to be okay with that . However uncertain it makes me there will always be a past , a present , and a future ; for that , I am exited.
I am exited to learn about the things that happened in the past , exited to see what happens in the present and what I make of it .. And I'm exited for what the future brings me . However uncertain it makes me . I am only 13 and there are greater things in the world I should be worrying about than a spider in the corner of my room or whether I'm going to pass this exam . I'm finally starting to see the world in its true light .. The one that makes me uncertain. The worry that other people are going to care way too much about me or what I do will forever scare me more than it should , but for a minute I forgot . I pushed that away and i knew what I was going to do was purely for me . So for a minute , do what I did . Push the uncertainty of others away and worry about yourself .
if you wasted your time reading my little out burst of thoughts i truly appreaciate it and i hope to speak to you again in the near future
- Rhiannon Maeve
For years I've pushed my uncertainties and anxieties for the back of my mind and ignored the fact they ever existed , pushed them until they've been done away with , until I forgot I ever even knew they existed as a part of me
But being uncertain is always something I as a person will experience no matter what I'm doing . Whether it be creating , achieving or aspiring ; over the years it's been something I've learnt to come to terms with .. Being uncertain
The things I get uncertain about are likely to be very varied from the things other people do . I am my own person , I have my own thoughts . I have my own personality . I have my own style of art and I have my own way of getting shit done . Now for me to share my fears and uncertainties with you would be a whole other thing , there are hundreds upon thousands of things I fear and am uncertain about . Spiders , heights , oblivion and the dark to name a few .. But to quote one of my favorite books "oblivion is inevitable" and while cliche , this is the truth . One day the human race will cease to exist and there will be nobody left to remember anything you or I have done . And I've learnt to be okay with that . However uncertain it makes me there will always be a past , a present , and a future ; for that , I am exited.
I am exited to learn about the things that happened in the past , exited to see what happens in the present and what I make of it .. And I'm exited for what the future brings me . However uncertain it makes me . I am only 13 and there are greater things in the world I should be worrying about than a spider in the corner of my room or whether I'm going to pass this exam . I'm finally starting to see the world in its true light .. The one that makes me uncertain. The worry that other people are going to care way too much about me or what I do will forever scare me more than it should , but for a minute I forgot . I pushed that away and i knew what I was going to do was purely for me . So for a minute , do what I did . Push the uncertainty of others away and worry about yourself .
if you wasted your time reading my little out burst of thoughts i truly appreaciate it and i hope to speak to you again in the near future
- Rhiannon Maeve
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